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May 8, 2024

Say Yes | Scott Erickson | Episode 48

Say Yes | Scott Erickson | Episode 48

Join us as we sit Across the Counter from artist, speaker, and author Scott Erickson!

In this ATC Episode:


• Scott Erickson, a consummate storyteller and artist, joins us to recount his transformative 'Say Yes' campaign—a profound response to a looming 40th birthday and the societal pressures of future achievements.

• Our conversation peels back the layers of Scott's artistic evolution, exploring the rituals that fortify his spiritual and mental health. By sharing how the tragedy of Anthony Bourdain's passing reshaped his perspective on life, Scott invites us on a reflective pilgrimage into the heart of what it means to be a performing artist leaving meaningful artifacts in his wake.

• As we navigate the junction of art and technology, Scott offers a refreshing viewpoint on the role of AI in the creative process, emphasizing the essence of the human touch in artistry. His approach challenges us to see technology as a collaborator, not a competitor. We examine the depth and resonance of art, likening it to a tool that uncovers vital internal dialogues, and speculate on the future symbiosis of AI and human creativity.

• Scott's artistic journey, magnified through the lens of Instagram fame and book tours, prompts a rich discussion on the evolving digital canvas and the enduring power of stories that stir the soul.

As we prepare to unveil his upcoming projects, we invite you on this compelling journey—an exploration of life's intricate tapestries through the eyes of an artist fiercely committed to authenticity and exploration.


Connect with Scott:

Instagram: @scottthepainter

Website: https://www.scottericksonart.com/



Beliefs espoused by the guests of ATC are not necessarily the beliefs and convictions of ATC. 

That said the intent of our podcast is to listen, remain curious and never fear failure in the discovery life giving truth. Many people we ardently disagree with have been our greatest teachers.


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Chapters

00:00 - Artist and Author Scott Erickson

11:30 - Art, AI, and Meaningful Stories

24:03 - Exploring Christianity and Branding in Texas

30:38 - Exploring Christian Mysticism and Faith

47:21 - Exploring Paradoxes in Faith and Art

Transcript
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Pull up a chair across the counter your one-stop shop for a variety of perspectives around Jesus and Christianity.

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I'm Grant Lockridge and I'm here with Scott Erickson.

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He is an artist, he is an author, he is a speaker and he is a creative pilgrim, so that's pretty fun.

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So, scott, what kind of led you to get into all the things the art, the author, all that jazz?

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What got you into that stuff?

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I like to say I'm an artist because I'm a haunted person.

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I mean.

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Things come to me every day and they're like make me.

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And I'm like I can't, I'm driving right now, I'll get in an accident and they're like make me, or we'll go away, and I'm like okay yeah, I'm pulling over, Don't go away.

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Yeah, I just something has.

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You know, I'm less interested in giving definitions for it.

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Some people will be like well, that's God, the great muse, the spirit, parts of your brain we don't understand, I don't know.

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Things come to me, ideas, creative ideas, images, concepts, and I have over decades of my life.

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I have fostered a conversation with that and now, vocationally, that is kind of translating that into images, books, experiences, and that's how I view myself as an artist and creative.

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Pilgrim means I'm on a pilgrimage, I'm on a journey and I'm imaging that pilgrimage and leaving artifacts along the way, and those have really resonated with people, which is kind of why we're talking today in some ways.

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So, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Absolutely.

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I've had a lot of jobs.

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I've been a high school teacher, a high school high school teacher.

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Mostly I've been a waiter.

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If I had a second job I've done the most worked at um, worked at nonprofits, worked at a design agency, um to have done lots of things, so yeah, that's awesome.

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Um so, tell me a little bit about this say yes campaign, as it were.

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So I, years ago, I went through a really difficult time when I was about to turn 40, like most people do.

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It's just a number created by astronomy, but it is a narrative of like, oh, did I do everything I hoped I did by this point?

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Am I too late?

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Can I do something different?

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Is there new things to discover?

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And we have this throughout our lives.

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I remember when I turned 25 and I was like well, I thought I was going to be married and have a kid by now, and I'm still single.

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And so I was like I've only planned my life up until this point, so I guess everything is an adventure.

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Afterwards, we kind of set these arbitrary dates of this is what I expect my life to be like, and 40 is just a big one and it does feel like a threshold.

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It is a weird kind of first half, second half, but I, I, I kind of I got in touch with something that I I really wish I would have.

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I think I got in touch with who I wanted to be in the world and I feel like I had been wandering around my life aimlessly up until that point and it it kind of led me to go well, what do you want to do and can I start doing that now?

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And so I started to work towards which was I wanted to.

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I think I was like I think I'm much more of a performing artist.

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I think I I don't think I'm a studio artist.

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I think I'm much more of a performing artist.

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I don't think I'm a studio artist.

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I think I'm actually a performing artist.

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But the narrative in my head, the voice in my head, would say nobody cares about an almost 40-year-old man trying to become a performing artist.

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And I was like that's a really strong argument Because it sounds embarrassing to try.

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And so I actually started and I bumped up against like some real depression, suicidal ideation, and I knew I needed to.

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I started developing these kinds of like mental health, spiritual practices to help me in these conversations and I found that they actually really worked.

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And then I again going back to the conversation, I heard the.

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I heard the muse, the giver of my life, go.

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I want you to start, I want you to start talking about this stuff.

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And so I started.

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I started talking about it.

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I talked about it on a podcast.

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I put it into a talk.

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I did the talk a few times.

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People were like, wow, it's really good.

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And then I, and then that was around the time Anthony Bourdain killed himself and and I really, you know, I didn't know him and I know since then we've seen a lot more about his hidden life, but I really he represented to me and a lot of my friends what we all hoped about our lives, which is we could unabashedly be ourselves, and in doing that, it would lead us to fame, travel experiences, endless visiting of bars around the world, and for him to go.

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I don't even want to be in my life, really just confronted the.

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I'm sorry, can we swear on this podcast?

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I just I, I'm totally cool, if we can.

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Sure.

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I'll.

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Just, I'm not a big one, I'll uh, I, you know it just confronted the bullshit narrative which is when I get there it'll fill me, and it's not.

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And that's always a lie when you think, oh, finally, I'll be fulfilled when I get there.

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And it's always a lie when you think, oh, finally, I'll be fulfilled when I get there.

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And it's not true.

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And yet I was doing these things that were like fostering, moving forward and trying and being a contribution, and so I was like I have something here that I should really spend, I should offer something to this conversation, and so I really committed to say yes.

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At that point.

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It was just called the liturgy of not giving up on yourself, which is like a real long title.

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So my friend was like you gotta have like a title for it.

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That's the subtitle.

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And so I started zhuzhing it into a show and it probably took me, you know, 15, 20 times to really kind of build some art pieces and some interactive stuff and and comedy.

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And you know, because I knew I wanted to make uh, I wanted to make a church service about suicide, because I've never been to one, but I've definitely been to church services that were so boring, I wanted.

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I thought about killing myself while I was there and that made me laugh when I said that and I was like, oh, you have to make like a comedy, weird art show.

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You can't just come at suit because giving up is on a spectrum, suicides on that.

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But I've seen plenty of people like die while still being alive.

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I've seen plenty of people binge watch something all the time and not deal with their life, numb out alcohol, drugs, just go right to.

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You know, do you think about killing yourself?

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Cause, like, because that isn't.

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That's one piece of like a long road, that's one part of a long journey, and and and and so, as I started like fleshing it out, there was so much there about mental health, spirituality, you know, and my big kind of conclusion you haven't seen it, but I know you have the book, but like I really push on my end times training that I had growing up in evangelicalism and what I really push on is like being obsessed with when Jesus is going to come back is the exact same thing as suicidal ideation, because both of them are trying to control a pain you don't feel that you have control over.

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And what is the pain?

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The pain is the mystery of existing, that's the pain, and religion and science and all kinds of things are trying to deal with the mystery of being alive, and and I and I kind of worked through that, but that was really poignant for me.

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Oh, when I realized I was like, oh, end times obsession is for those who I don't know if your audience end times it's just like, uh, using the Bible as like a code book to go this, this date, this time, jesus is going to come back and reality as we know it will change over and it'll all be golden and glorious and apparently God agrees with the way we see everything and it'll be the way.

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It'll be the heaven I want, and um and to go.

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That's just.

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That's just suicidal ideation too.

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That's just like you know, and there's so many things to that.

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It was just like I can't believe the culture I grew up in.

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And.

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I and I make and I say a lot about like how I liked, how I grew up, and nobody was really crazy.

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Nobody was like you know, thursday it's going to happen, bring your Nikes.

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You know nobody was doing that.

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But people were like, oh yeah, we, you know, I won't die because Jesus is going to come back.

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And you know, I remember being at a middle school retreat and like adults are telling you know, adults, like as a kid, you trust adults because they can buy milkshakes at any time, they can drive cars.

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You're trusting these adults.

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And then these grown adults are like telling these middle schoolers like this is how the world's going to end, this is how it's going to happen.

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Look at here, and it's so, it's so effing ridiculous.

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You know what I'm saying.

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Like it's now, as a parent, I'm like who let these insane people tell me as a kid, you know, and it's so, it's kind of all of that.

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But I do think it's interesting that the faith that's like God's good, god's perfect will, god's.

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I can't wait to get out of here, cause it's all this sucks Well, sin, yes, but God couldn't do anything about.

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You know, get that spiritual schizophrenia.

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It's really fascinating when you really get into it and I am not interested in that anymore.

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I mean that kind of way of thinking about it all.

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But I found that that, tied into the conversation about suicide because here's the real thing about suicide and mental health is like, uh, we've in spirituality, we've and I talk about this right at the beginning is like we make God a product.

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We're like you got to get Jesus and it'll make your life better.

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But look, I had Jesus in my heart and I still wanted my heart to stop, like Jesus didn't solve that.

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Now could I say am I still around because of some kind of faith?

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Maybe I don't know, I don't know.

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I can't see all the the hidden strings pulling everything together.

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But what religion was offering me like failed at a spot, at a point in my mental health and I needed therapy and I needed, like rest and I needed identity, work and all these kinds of things.

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So so anyways, Grant, we could keep meandering in so many directions.

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So I endeavored to put something together and then bring this conversation and see where it'd go.

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And it started happening, and around the time, my Instagram was getting popular and so more and more people were like, oh, what's this thing you're doing and then people would talk about it.

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The time my Instagram was getting popular and so more and more people were like, oh, what's this thing you're doing?

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And then people would talk about it.

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And then, and then I got a book deal.

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Covid happened.

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I didn't do it for a year and a half and I started touring it again after I made it into a book and and now I'm like not doing it anymore because it's taped and I'll be like here's the book, here's, here's the special, here's, and, and I'm working on my next thing.

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So, uh, so I've been doing this work for like five years and um, but I really enjoyed all that it led me to and and the journey it brought me on.

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Somebody asked me today on instagram they're like what are your thoughts on ai?

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And uh, because I don't.

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They seem like they were like you seem kind of pro AI and I don't know if I am pro AI or not.

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You do seem that way to me.

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How would you know that?

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What kind of person seems pro AI?

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Yeah, like how would I possibly know that?

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What is?

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the rubric I just said it's going to happen whether we like it or not.

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For me it's just another tool.

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But here's what I said.

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I was like the thing that AI can't take away is the process of transformation that the artist puts themselves through.

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You know, as in like.

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Is it going to affect industries?

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Oh, most likely.

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Yeah, some people are going to, but technology has done that.

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There was a time in the 80s that if you knew how to do one thing on a film set, you could have a job.

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Now you kind of need to know how to do 10 things.

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You can't just be a gaffer.

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You got to have other kinds of things that you do, no-transcript in the tool set, just like a computer, just like an ipad.

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You know when some people like, when, uh, you know some people be like oh, can I get an original of that illustration?

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You did, and I'm like there is no original.

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The original is in an iPad.

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That then I airdropped to my phone, that then I put on Instagram.

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It's not, it doesn't exist.

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And yet it does exist there.

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There, there isn't the.

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I guess you mean like when will I print that out and I can hold it in my hands?

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You know, like there's so many things that have changed the landscape of, of art entity that is going through the transformational process, who then is like transcribing it?

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And that is my work.

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Sounds like you're pro-AI man.

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No, I'm just kidding.

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Sounds like you're into it, dude.

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You heard it here first.

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Everybody Scott Erickson is pro-AI.

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Besides eradicating the human race, I just don't want that to happen.

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Yeah, I mean that didn't sound fun, but so if we're going down the ai route, which it sounds like we're.

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It sounds like we're already there, right, it sounds like we already hit the button and there's not a lot going back on that.

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So you don't think like.

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This is a question that I would pose to you Like can AI create meaningful art?

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Well, I think things are only meaningful because of what it uncovers in you.

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So this is what I mean.

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Like, um, I used to be one of my other jobs.

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I used to be, like a, a live painter.

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Uh, look, I didn't grow up charismatic, but yeah, I didn't grow up charismatic.

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Later, later on, people would be like oh, you're like a prophetic painter.

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And I was like sure, I guess, I don't know.

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Know, I grew up lutheran.

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We like don't talk about the holy spirit, uh, the spirit, for a good couple decades and still, in some ways it's just changed.

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But like I would, at events, I would wait, I'd receive an image and then I'd make it.

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I wouldn't flip it upside, I wouldn't jump up and down when I did a, just boringly like, made this complex image and be like but what my?

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But?

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Afterwards people would come up and talk to me.

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And here's the experience I'm trying to relate to you is that people would be like what does this mean?

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And I'd be like, uh, I'm curious what.

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I have some thoughts, but I'm curious what, what's it hitting on you?

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And then they would tell me this whole thing.

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And then the next person would come up and be like what does this mean?

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I'd say the same thing and then they'd tell me something completely different.

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And I realized one of the great functions of art poems, music, film, imagery is it can be used as an excavation tool.

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What it's doing is it's excavating a deep conversation that you're having about existence.

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It's actually what I think prayer is.

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Prayer is not the words we say, the music, the images.

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Those are excavation tools.

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Prayer is the ongoing interior conversation you're having with the divine.

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There's many examples for this, but you could take the Bible.

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Have you ever read a passage of scripture and you underlined it and then, years later, you came back to that passage and you're like, oh, that part's good, but I'd underline this part.

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Now, what are we saying there?

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Did the Bible change?

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No, the conversation in you changed and it's reflecting, it's mirroring, it's excavating a different.

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Those words are excavating a different part of you, a different conversation.

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So art has a good function of that.

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So AI.

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Ai is just going, is just a big pattern maker.

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So it's going to look at all, if it can get to this.

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It's going to look at all the things we deem as meaningful art or our famous art, and then they'll start making its own concoctions of that, which is kind of what artists are doing.

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Whatever it can be meaningful, because if it does excavate something in in people, then yes, but I don't.

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If your question, I'm not sure, I don't think it's ever going to replace me.

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No, no, because it doesn't.

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It's not necessarily telling the feeling or the process.

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It's just like showing something and who knows you, I mean that's but we.

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But you can go to any like modern art museum and walk around and go.

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I don't know what any of this shit's supposed to mean.

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Like, like, I don't I mean, there's so many there's.

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So there's so many things like I remember being at the uh, philadelphia art museum and there's some very famous works there, things I studied in college.

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But I remember after like a couple hours I was like this still isn't as cool as a rock show.

00:19:04.730 --> 00:19:11.390
You know, like people just people are like trying to find some like why am I here?

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Why did I pay 35 dollars?

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You know they're they're trying to find something meaningful and I think what's really meaningful is story and transformation.

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And then, like they had this great renoir exhibit and I was like you know, it'd be great if Renoir was here and he could be like, come, come, let me show you these paintings I made.

00:19:32.345 --> 00:19:39.268
This is my neighbor, alain and Emily, and here's their like laundry hanging in the backyard.

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You know he didn't tell you where all this stuff came from.

00:19:42.240 --> 00:19:49.213
Just seeing things on its own, you could admire the beauty of it and it and stuff, but, like, I think it's the story that really makes things meaningful.

00:19:49.213 --> 00:19:58.340
So yeah, so maybe when ai does that, I mean maybe ai will become a really good storyteller I don't know, man.

00:19:59.261 --> 00:20:00.124
All I know is I'm.

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If I had to put myself in a camp, I'd be anti-AI, anti-ai.

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It's kind of scary.

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It's not like I'm fearful, it's just like it's crazy.

00:20:17.303 --> 00:20:20.455
The technology curve of how it can build itself and how fast it could go is kind of a problem.

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But I'd hope that we could just like like.

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This sounds probably very ignorant of me, but I I'd hope we could just hit the off button.

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You know the like power runs out at some point, like if it gets like crazy out of control.

00:20:36.786 --> 00:20:50.410
You'd hope you could just hit the off button somewhere yeah, you know, uh, a movie just came out last year called the Creator, and it's okay, I wasn't a big fan, but it was really cool visually.

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Visually it was a really cool story and this maybe wasn't obvious.

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It wasn't obvious to me, but when a friend walked me through I was like, oh yeah, what this friend was saying is she's like what if AI?

00:21:03.836 --> 00:21:08.152
Everybody's afraid that AI is going to take on the worst parts of being human.

00:21:08.152 --> 00:21:08.955
But what if?

00:21:08.955 --> 00:21:12.359
What if artificial intelligence took on the best parts of being human?

00:21:12.359 --> 00:21:16.401
And actually in that movie, ai is trying to stop the war.

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Ai is trying to stop the conflict.

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It's the humans that are afraid and they want to keep destroying it.

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But AI invents a thing that's going to stop all wars for people's sake.

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And I think that's a fascinating idea, because AI is only going to just reflect our own, the duality in us which is our amazing capacity to be selfless and our amazing capacity to be selfish less and our amazing capacity to be selfish.

00:21:52.132 --> 00:22:17.384
And we find ourselves constantly in between those decisions for a myriad of reasons, and trying to navigate a world and wanting, and you know, and I think why the teachings of Jesus resonate with me is because he is asking us to go the way of selflessness, the way of love, and that's why it's a still an invitation and a fascinating story for me If AI decided to.

00:22:17.384 --> 00:22:19.755
Yeah, I don't know, I get.

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I mean, I get the doomsayers.

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I get the one where AI is like you know, we're going to manufacture paperclips.

00:22:25.974 --> 00:22:31.838
The best way to do that is humans have iron in them, let's you know like, and so we're going to kill humans so we can make paper.

00:22:31.838 --> 00:22:43.324
You know, there's that kind of those fantastical realities, but I wonder in some ways that maybe it actually what if it helps us to choose selflessness better?

00:22:43.324 --> 00:22:43.865
I don't know.

00:22:44.730 --> 00:22:48.400
Yeah, it's worth thinking about, at least I'm.

00:22:48.400 --> 00:22:55.151
I'm always a little cautious, though, because there are really good people in the world, but there's also really bad people.

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So if it's anything like ai there probably be will will be a fantastic ai that's trying to help everybody, and then somebody like make it into a weapon, and it'll be great but oh for sure somebody's gonna make it into a weapon.

00:23:06.953 --> 00:23:07.258
yeah, and it'll be great.

00:23:07.258 --> 00:23:08.054
Oh for sure somebody's going to make it into a weapon.

00:23:08.054 --> 00:23:14.760
Yeah, forget all that, and they will call themselves the hero.

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I don't know.

00:23:15.643 --> 00:23:19.957
Nobody ever thinks they're the bad guy.

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They say they're the victim and that's why they're doing something.

00:23:25.601 --> 00:23:31.074
Yeah, yeah, say they're the victim and that's why they're doing something.

00:23:31.074 --> 00:23:31.414
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:23:31.414 --> 00:23:47.474
But so you said that it, um, the say yes thing is kind of a church service for suicide, which is one super interesting language, um, and you also told me a lot about, like, what you don't believe about jesus and like you know the wrong things.

00:23:47.474 --> 00:23:48.699
But where are you at now?

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Like what's kind of what would be?

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What do you think about Jesus and Christianity and all that?

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What do I think about Jesus and Christianity?

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Well, how about this?

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I'll do.

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I've lived in Texas twice and I have mixed feelings about Texas.

00:24:08.605 --> 00:24:14.036
One of the things I don't like about Texas is I hate the brand.

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The brand of Texas is like all caps, big, fatty fonts, everything's big stars, things like that.

00:24:26.662 --> 00:24:39.855
And when I actually spent time, like in Austin, in the hill country, it's beautiful and magical there and peaceful, a mixture of harsh, like the landscape wants to kill you.

00:24:39.855 --> 00:24:52.872
It's prickly and cactusy and snakes and things, but it's also, like you know, filled with life and it's, you know, hot.

00:24:52.872 --> 00:25:12.178
It's just it's so much more than big fonts and and you know what I'm saying and, uh, big fonts and oil industry and football and, um, you know, I saw some designers make some stuff into clothing and brands that were like this is this more speaks to texas than I think you know the houston texans logo.

00:25:12.178 --> 00:25:26.571
I say that because, like there is, there is a brand of christianity, um, at least american christianity that I just I don't buy into anymore.

00:25:26.571 --> 00:25:30.501
It in it and it has it's a very cultural thing.

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People are like what do you mean?

00:25:31.473 --> 00:25:32.538
There's no brand?

00:25:32.538 --> 00:25:34.247
I'm like there absolutely is a brand.

00:25:34.407 --> 00:25:40.962
It's like you got to listen to these like I like I remember when hill song, remember when hill song was a thing.

00:25:40.962 --> 00:25:53.440
I remember when, like hill song music was a thing and I was like talking to my wife about it, I was like it's, I'm fine with their music, it's just music I don't listen to, I don't.

00:25:53.440 --> 00:25:55.873
It's just like it's the genre I don't listen to.

00:25:55.873 --> 00:26:02.952
And to say, oh, you're gonna go to church and we're gonna sing these songs because that's what it means to be a christian.

00:26:02.952 --> 00:26:09.794
I'm like, no, it's not, that's just a brand, that's just the brand you're telling me that is.

00:26:09.794 --> 00:26:10.756
That's not what it is.

00:26:10.756 --> 00:26:11.597
Does that make sense?

00:26:11.597 --> 00:26:34.566
Like, so there's in getting in moving away from the brand, and a lot of my you know visual work is to not trying to make another brand but to go, hey, we need like an updated symbol set, we need a new visual vocabulary and just the way we gather and how we do things.

00:26:34.566 --> 00:26:38.238
Like I just I refuse to believe there's this one way.

00:26:38.238 --> 00:26:44.175
And as I've been able to get out into the world and meet other people and stuff, I was like, oh yeah, there's endless, endless ways of doing it.

00:26:44.175 --> 00:26:45.058
It's all invented.

00:26:45.058 --> 00:26:52.833
It doesn't mean that it's not meaningful, it's just like it's all made up it, meaning like we made it, like you know, like we invented it.

00:26:52.833 --> 00:26:58.756
Because we need symbols, processes, structures to help us get to the essence of the thing.

00:26:58.756 --> 00:27:08.740
And the reason we still do things over hundreds and hundreds of years is because there's just things built into the human experience that just cause a transformational experience.

00:27:08.740 --> 00:27:15.458
One is when somebody stands up and tells a story that throughout human history, has always changed people.

00:27:15.458 --> 00:27:18.183
So somebody gets up and tell stories.

00:27:18.183 --> 00:27:20.314
Group singing always changes people.

00:27:20.314 --> 00:27:26.938
Uh, you know, uh, releasing ourselves of shame in solidarity, uh, that does something.

00:27:26.938 --> 00:27:28.602
Maybe we call that confession of sin.

00:27:28.602 --> 00:27:40.142
And then sharing gifts together, not just like in stewardship, but like pooling our stuff together, helping others, helping needs, offering in service, art, what we could offer.

00:27:40.142 --> 00:27:42.301
These are all like transformational things.

00:27:42.301 --> 00:27:49.273
And so I still really believe in those things, things, and so I still really believe in those things.

00:27:49.294 --> 00:27:52.356
Jesus, I was talking with some friends recently.

00:27:52.356 --> 00:28:10.039
I was like, look, it's not, it's not beyond me that I can't, it's not beyond me that I believe in like a mystical man hiding behind, hiding out behind everything, like that's ridiculous in some ways, you know like where, where is he gonna pop out?

00:28:10.039 --> 00:28:24.313
But even jesus says like at in matthew 25, like when you know you are coming with me because you, when I was thirsty, you gave me something to drink, when I was hungry, you gave me something to eat, so on, so forth.

00:28:24.313 --> 00:28:27.602
They're like we never saw you and's like when you did it to the least of these, you're doing it to me.

00:28:27.602 --> 00:28:35.564
So even he's saying somewhere in there, like how you're going to treat your neighbor is how essentially you treat God.

00:28:35.564 --> 00:28:38.759
Do you think God is hiding out in the lives of your neighbor?

00:28:38.759 --> 00:28:42.555
Because that's what you really think by how you treat your neighbor.

00:28:42.555 --> 00:28:49.325
And so I understand to a point that mystery and I'm trying to live into that.

00:28:49.325 --> 00:28:58.632
But like it is, it is a bit of a mystery to me.

00:28:58.672 --> 00:29:00.233
And yet I've met Jesus in a couple mystical experiences.

00:29:00.233 --> 00:29:06.019
I have friends who have had Jesus walk into their rooms in dreams.

00:29:06.019 --> 00:29:31.038
I just was having dinner with some friends of mine and Lauren was in Indonesia recently and she was talking to these two women, one woman's like middle-aged, and then her older mother, and this woman was like oh, my mother can see the spiritual world, and her mother's like no, no, no, I don't really want to talk about it, but eventually they talked about it and she was like, yeah, she's like.

00:29:31.038 --> 00:29:38.498
You know, there's something over there and there's someone over there, and there's someone over there and Lauren goes, oh, have you ever seen Jesus?

00:29:38.498 --> 00:29:44.619
And she goes, oh, I run into him all the time.

00:29:44.619 --> 00:30:02.261
That was her response, haze in the air, you know, I'm just like, okay, I'm very open-handed about it and a Christ-centric worldview hasn't failed me.

00:30:02.261 --> 00:30:08.759
I've had to become broader in what that means, but I think something invisible making itself visible has proven to be true for me.

00:30:08.759 --> 00:30:11.705
I've had to become broader in what that means, but I think something invisible making itself visible has proven to be true for me.

00:30:11.705 --> 00:30:24.520
I think the practice, what is the fruit of the practice of honoring the divine, the hidden Jesus in everybody, is a helpful fruit, is a good way to live, not an easy one.

00:30:24.520 --> 00:30:29.747
I don't get to win all the time, but quote, unquote win.

00:30:29.747 --> 00:30:35.618
So yeah, so I'm, yeah, that's how I, that's how I.

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I guess I would think about it.

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You know it's.

00:30:38.833 --> 00:30:41.318
I remember I was at this university, christian university.

00:30:41.318 --> 00:30:43.313
I don't get asked to speak out a lot at those.

00:30:43.313 --> 00:30:47.963
But this one kid was like tell me, tell me, when you met Jesus to speak out a lot at those.

00:30:47.963 --> 00:30:50.150
But this one kid was like tell me, tell me, when you met Jesus?

00:30:50.150 --> 00:30:56.292
And I knew what he meant.

00:30:56.292 --> 00:30:58.199
But now, 20 something years, from his perspective, that question stunned me.

00:30:58.219 --> 00:30:59.924
I was cause inwardly and I should have said it out loud.

00:30:59.924 --> 00:31:04.194
I put some other answer together, but inwardly I was like you've met Jesus?

00:31:04.194 --> 00:31:08.044
Like you should be talking like I haven't met.

00:31:08.044 --> 00:31:12.992
I've seen Jesus, maybe out of the corner of my eye, that's about it.

00:31:12.992 --> 00:31:14.196
But have I met?

00:31:14.196 --> 00:31:14.739
I don't know.

00:31:14.739 --> 00:31:16.675
Have I like?

00:31:16.675 --> 00:31:23.170
It isn't some, it's, it's something that has transformed me and the but in yet something.

00:31:23.170 --> 00:31:24.734
I don't know if I could ever prove.

00:31:24.734 --> 00:31:25.778
You know what I'm saying, does that make sense?

00:31:25.778 --> 00:31:27.623
And yet something I don't know if I could ever prove.

00:31:27.623 --> 00:31:28.866
You know what I'm saying, does that make sense?

00:31:28.866 --> 00:31:53.116
And yet I keep meeting other women and men who've had similar experiences, who gather together to give gratitude to the giver of our existence and then and try to obey how love and goodness and and that is working out in this world.

00:31:53.116 --> 00:31:54.941
And so you know, I want to.

00:31:54.941 --> 00:31:56.492
I I still want to be a part of it.

00:31:56.492 --> 00:31:58.558
I want to make a space.

00:31:58.558 --> 00:31:59.842
Here's a.

00:31:59.842 --> 00:32:00.913
Here's the long winded.

00:32:00.913 --> 00:32:01.877
I should have just got to this.

00:32:02.009 --> 00:32:06.153
A friend of mine recently we were having drinks and he's like I still can't believe you're a Christian.

00:32:06.153 --> 00:32:07.476
And I was like, yeah, me too.

00:32:07.476 --> 00:32:15.375
And I was like, but two reasons One, the Christocentric worldview hasn't failed me, and the two.

00:32:15.375 --> 00:32:25.731
The second reason is a bit paradoxical, which is I grew up in a tradition, an institution, a religion that gave me a lot of really wonderful things that I'm really grateful for.

00:32:25.731 --> 00:32:48.220
It's also proven to be a place that has harbored racists and bigots and homophobes and misogynists and warmongers and philanderers, and we've seen a bit of that uncovering and I'm really heartbroken that's all I can say is I'm really heartbroken about it.

00:32:48.869 --> 00:32:53.497
But paradoxically, on the other side of that, I keep people keep telling me their mystical stories.

00:32:53.497 --> 00:33:04.556
People keep telling I keep bumping into people and they tell me about how they met God, how the Jesus appeared to them, how they you know what I'm saying and something's happening.

00:33:04.556 --> 00:33:18.832
Something's happening and I now, paradoxically, I have to have, I hold both of like whatever the container is we're building around the thing to try to contain.

00:33:18.832 --> 00:33:35.221
The thing is always going to have its faults and blemishes and failings, but yet something is still happening and I think I have to live just kind of with both of those things at the same time.

00:33:35.221 --> 00:33:36.470
You know what I'm saying, if that makes sense.

00:33:36.470 --> 00:33:45.362
I have to live with like something's happening and whatever we do to try to contain it is always gonna be not enough.

00:33:48.050 --> 00:33:49.492
That's totally fair.

00:33:49.492 --> 00:33:51.976
I'm curious be not enough?

00:33:51.976 --> 00:33:55.019
Yeah, that's totally fair, I'm curious.

00:33:55.019 --> 00:33:56.000
So where do I even go?

00:33:56.000 --> 00:33:58.143
So I'm curious about.

00:33:58.403 --> 00:33:59.525
Where do we even go?

00:34:03.049 --> 00:34:04.990
I've heard a lot of Christian mysticism, so this is just what's going through my mind.

00:34:04.990 --> 00:34:05.917
I've heard the Christian mysticism.

00:34:05.878 --> 00:34:07.808
So this is just what's going through my mind is I've heard the Christian mystic thing.

00:34:07.808 --> 00:34:18.302
I've heard you know a lot of crazy stories about Jesus and you know raising people from the dead and visiting them and seeing him.

00:34:18.302 --> 00:34:21.025
You know all sorts of you know crazy stuff.

00:34:21.025 --> 00:34:23.597
I just call it crazy because you know nothing.

00:34:23.597 --> 00:34:23.960
I love it.

00:34:23.960 --> 00:34:26.818
I've never seen anything like that.

00:34:26.818 --> 00:34:30.152
Because you know nothing, I love it.

00:34:30.152 --> 00:34:30.956
I've never seen anything like that.

00:34:30.956 --> 00:34:32.442
Um, it would be crazy to me if I saw it and told you about it.

00:34:32.442 --> 00:34:32.864
Still would be crazy.

00:34:32.864 --> 00:34:44.614
So I'm not calling these people crazy, I'm calling the the thing you get what I'm saying yeah, yeah, but so, and and all that, just christian mysticism.

00:34:45.295 --> 00:34:48.163
You know, know, weird encounter soup.

00:34:48.163 --> 00:34:51.958
Who do you say Jesus is through that?

00:34:51.958 --> 00:35:02.577
Like would you say, jesus is son of God yeah, you know, son of the God of the Bible, yahweh, whatever and who would you say Jesus is?

00:35:04.112 --> 00:35:05.516
Is this an inquisition?

00:35:05.516 --> 00:35:06.278
Is it?

00:35:06.278 --> 00:35:08.193
Well, it's really just.

00:35:08.193 --> 00:35:09.456
I'm curious, Are you?

00:35:09.496 --> 00:35:10.039
just asking me what.

00:35:10.099 --> 00:35:10.320
I know.

00:35:11.130 --> 00:35:15.639
I'm curious as, like a Christian, you know who you would say Jesus is.

00:35:15.639 --> 00:35:27.353
If you, you know pseudo identify as a Christian, to some extent the reluctant Christian, if you will, which I think we've all been there, done that.

00:35:27.353 --> 00:35:32.543
Um, I'm curious where you would put yourself on that on that map.

00:35:34.030 --> 00:35:34.831
I think um.

00:35:34.831 --> 00:35:36.894
My friend.

00:35:36.894 --> 00:35:39.518
Nate Staniforth is a professional magician.

00:35:39.518 --> 00:35:43.422
He's like a magician's magician he makes magic tricks for other.

00:35:43.422 --> 00:35:49.373
He's on like David Blaine's team makes magic tricks for other.

00:35:49.373 --> 00:35:50.074
He's on like david blaine's team.

00:35:50.094 --> 00:35:52.505
That's um being a magician's magician making tricks for other people that's, that's pretty.

00:35:52.525 --> 00:35:53.307
Yeah, I asked him one time.

00:35:53.307 --> 00:35:57.639
I was like nate, I I kind of can't.

00:35:57.639 --> 00:36:00.144
I was like I know I'm a creator.

00:36:00.144 --> 00:36:02.530
So I was like how do you invent a magic trick?

00:36:02.530 --> 00:36:04.434
Like tell me your process with that.

00:36:04.434 --> 00:36:11.596
And he well, the first thing you have to do is imagine something that you deem is impossible.

00:36:11.596 --> 00:36:25.414
And then the second thing you would have to define is, if you were to see something impossible, what are the elements that would make you think this is actually happening?

00:36:25.414 --> 00:36:32.273
So somebody flying, so oh, a ring around them showing that there's no strings?

00:36:32.273 --> 00:36:33.637
You know what?

00:36:33.637 --> 00:36:35.240
What would prove that it's impossible?

00:36:35.240 --> 00:36:41.927
And then he's like and then, third, you hide all the trickery in the places.

00:36:42.007 --> 00:36:47.800
People aren't looking yeah you hide all the, the.

00:36:47.800 --> 00:36:49.864
Yeah, that's where you hide the, the illusion.

00:36:50.110 --> 00:36:51.976
The most important thing Hide the trick.

00:36:51.996 --> 00:36:52.177
Yeah.

00:36:52.269 --> 00:36:53.556
It's like people aren't looking.

00:36:54.811 --> 00:37:16.891
He, he's taught me a lot, but he, what he loves about magic is the moment a trick happens, because what happens and a lot of people default to like well, it's magnets or I remember my cousin seeing david blaine for the first time years ago and he's like satan.

00:37:16.911 --> 00:37:24.731
It's got to be satan, because what happens when a magic trick happens is what you think is real.

00:37:24.731 --> 00:37:30.871
All of a sudden falls apart and you're like I don't, I don't know what reality is anymore.

00:37:30.871 --> 00:38:09.947
So when you'd say, crazy, that's exactly it, you're seeing something and you're like everything that I thought was, if this is really divine pilgrimage or my journey to God is to go, I'm ready, a trained spiritual director, so uh, which means I just walk alongside people in their spiritual lives.

00:38:09.947 --> 00:38:15.514
I'm like part of their um, soul friendship, um, but what?

00:38:15.514 --> 00:38:17.079
Um?

00:38:17.079 --> 00:38:17.780
It's not a.

00:38:17.780 --> 00:38:19.373
A.

00:38:19.492 --> 00:38:28.181
One of the things that I've had to that have really been released from is is uh, so much of my faith was put on me that it's something I have to do.

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Guys, you got to get up earlier to have your quiet time.

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You got to be praying more, you got to be doing more of this, and there are spiritual practices that we should do to till the soil.

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If we take the parable of the sower, we need to keep that soil open for when God wants to plant the seed, but we do not plant the seed.

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God is the author and perfecter of our faith.

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Christ is, as Paul said.

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So God is doing something through each one of our lives.

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So to be a spiritual director is not, to start with, like all right, let's get God's attention and ask him what he's doing.

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Spiritual direction, to walk alongside prayer, is not getting God's attention.

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Prayer is awakening to what God's already doing, awakening to what's already happening.

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So I am in my practice with God.

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Christ is awakening where I'm being led.

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What's changing in me?

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I mean a lot of my job.

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I have this on my.

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I don't know if this is an audio one, but it says take dictation from the silence one, but it says take dictation from the silence, like I, that's my job is to be a listener and then take dictation from that silence.

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So yeah, uh, christ, um is that part of God that is, is is happening in the world, is incarnating in the world, in the lives of people, um, and I want, I don't want to miss that, I want to be aware of that because I'm also um invited into that incarnation.

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Jesus, historically great.

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You know, I don't think you're asking me about what, do I think about the Bible or Bible interpretations?

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You know, I think these four guys wrote their accounts of Jesus decades after it happened and we still have them to this day and they still do things to people.

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You know, somebody at my church was like, even if Jesus didn't exist, like really exist, they're like isn't it interesting, we're still talking about what he talked about.

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Like what he talked about is still effect, is still the things we're talking about today, and that to me, looks like a thread through all of humanity.

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Um, but it's very.

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You know, one of the things about travel that's really great is you should go to a country that doesn't celebrate christmas.

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You should go to a place that doesn't have a christian worldview embedded in its culture, because then you're like oh, this is just a culture I receive.

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How can I still find god in the midst if I don't know all the key points and stuff like that?

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So for me, christ Jesus, these are just.

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These are just great name tags to bigger things that exist, and I think I'm always willing to let go of the name tags or take off the name tags and go.

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Just what's happening.

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A practice I've been doing in the last year has just been like if didn't read any christian books, if I didn't read any holy scriptures, if I didn't listen to podcasts or teachers or anything, if I had no go to church, if I had no religious stuff in my life, would I look at the world I'm living in?

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Would?

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When I look at the world around me and go, I think there's something behind all this and it's a really great practice, because then you're paying attention to the people around you, how nature's working, history, all these things, stuff like that, and that did that answer your question yeah, kind of.

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I mean I, I get what you're, I get what you're saying of.

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You know that that phrase you said at the end take the name tags off is pretty interesting to me, um j.

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Jesus is the son of God.

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God, oh, god's a he.

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He can have a son.

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These are just metaphors, these are just titles, these are just name tags for a mystery that's.

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That's endlessly noble and we're just trying to like, piece together.

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There's some relationship, there's something about this, but like God is unknowable really, and yet has given us, you know, given us Jesus Like when, and BBT Barbara Brown Taylor in her book Holy Envy.

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This is really helpful for me.

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She's when Jesus says I am the way, the truth and the life.

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No one can come to the father except through me.

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She's when jesus says I am the way, the truth and the life.

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No one can come to the father except through me.

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Um, the culture I grew up in.

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It made jesus like the gatekeeper.

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It said no one can come, no, you can't get to the father unless you come through jesus.

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Like jesus isn't the way.

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We made jesus in the way, um, but jesus says he's the way and she helped me because she's just like yeah, jesus is the way, because you can't get to God by yourself.

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God gave God to you and that is saying you can't get to God.

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There's nothing you can do.

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Only God can come to you, and that's who Jesus is.

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It's God coming to you.

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Yeah.

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There you go.

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There you go, so that made more sense to me.

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Um, it takes me a second.

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I'm, I'm just learning this whole christian.

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I would I don't like putting labels on things, so I'm not, yeah, but you know kind of mystic, kind of kind of vibes.

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I'm sure you've heard that you know Christian mysticism a little bit.

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Yeah, yeah.

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Yeah, that's how you would define.

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You is kind of mystic Kind of what I would describe kind of this thought process, if that makes sense.

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It's kind of mysticism level.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, um it.

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I mean mystic, meaning like it's kind of a mystery.

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You know, uh, I, I, uh a friend of mine who's a a priest up in Detroit, we were talking about the Ascension cause.

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I was doing a project on the resurrection and when I looked in the the, the folder in my head under Ascension, I was like I don't know what to think about the ascension.

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Nobody, actually nobody in Protestantism, really talked to me about it.

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So I called this father, I know, and he was like well, from my tradition, this is what we believe, and he explained a bunch of things and he goes, and then at the end he goes.

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And that's about as much as I can know of that mystery.

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Thanks man, thanks father which was.

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But I love the answer because essentially he's saying he's like you can't, because a mystery you can't just go well, figured it out just moving on.

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A mystery is like a pebble in your shoe.

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A mystery is like an in.

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It's like the ending of lost and you're like what was that all about?

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You know, it's like the it's, it's, um, it's, it's like the ending of Lost and you're like what was that all about?

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You know it's like the it's, it's, it's, it's unsolvable, because then it is constantly and it's working, it's still alive in you.

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I, I mean, one of my prayers to God was like why won't, why won't you just tell me the plan?

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Why won't, why won't you just tell me the plan?

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I mean like why won't you?

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Why don't you just like get, send a fax and go this, this and this and this?

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And the answer was like because I want to keep you close, Like if, if I gave you a plan, you just take it and run with it and be like thanks, Bye, I got it from here.

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The answer was like I want to keep you close.

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Yeah, I think the mystery keeps you close.

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That's interesting.

00:46:45.177 --> 00:46:53.431
So in our, in our last little bit here one, I like to give you some space to be able to plug whatever you want to plug.

00:46:53.431 --> 00:46:56.447
But I am curious about what you're working on now.

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As far as you know, you said that you have, like, future projects that you're working on, yeah, as you step down from the other ones.

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So what is that?

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What is that you're working on now?

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yeah and um, I, just I, I if I can just kind of end on that I, you know, because, like what I want to keep you close, I, I think that's the.

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The why I'm still a person of faith is because and this is kind of leading in with the next thing I'm working on is is the paradox of it, the just like there are moments in being alive that you're just like I am all alone and my life is just a nothing in the existence of all things, and that's a very humbling experience I think all human beings, if you let yourself and don't medicate yourself, will have.

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And then, on the other side of that, and then on the other side of that, there are so many times when I'm just like what just happened, Like that seemed so intimate with something I said by myself, a prayer that I whispered, and it's happening and it's unfolding.

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It just feels like divinely intentional and that and that is what softens me and keeps me in is just the divine intention that I that I find that catches me off guard.

00:48:32.202 --> 00:48:36.007
Um, I again, I'm a haunted person.

00:48:36.248 --> 00:48:51.530
About a year and a half ago, the muse started saying um, paradox, I want you to like start looking at paradox, because all wisdom teachers say you eventually end in paradox.

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And why is that?

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So I started doing a lot of reading and and and then the spirit kind of puts things together.

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So I think the next, the next show that I'll put together, is about paradox and transformation and I'm I have like I'm back to a bunch of notes and I've kind of put it into some talks.

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And I think the summer I have this prayer book that I'm getting done by the end of May hopefully and then this summer I'm going to start doing some like small little gatherings, like here in my studio.

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This is just like one piece of a larger space, but like and just start working it out and seeing what that is.

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Also, I was talking to my agent, my book agent, and she was like what's the book you want to make?

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And I was like I wouldn't call it this, but I was like I want to make a new iconography for Christianity.

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I think a lot of the stuff which is beautiful and great, but a lot of it's based in old paradigms And-.

00:50:05.300 --> 00:50:08.807
So tell me what that word means before we get Okay, so Again, iconography.

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Let's take iconography, just the study of images.

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How would you take an idea and put an image in and what would it mean?

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So let's take really famous michelangelo sistine chapel.

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You've got, you know god and adam and their hands, you know, their fingers are touching, they're almost touching.

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Right.

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That is based in platonic thought, meaning there are these two absolutes that exist together and they're separate from each other, but they're trying to connect.

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Well now, and look, I'm like this is dummy's guide for quantum theory, but now, because of quantum mechanics and entanglement theory and stuff, we know that that's not what reality is.

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That actually reality is not two static things all on their own, but reality is actually things are quite entangled and enmeshed and much more connected than we ever imagined, and we haven't updated any kind of Christian symbolism for that.

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And so we're still using old images, talking about an old way of understanding reality as as part of our language and part of our.

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So we just need we need new symbols to update what we know about reality, at least what we know now.

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You know, because we keep discovering more and more crazy things.

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So I think that's the one of the roles is of the artist in the midst of the community is to go well, we we need to contextualize this from what we understand.

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Now, you know and I'm just a part of that long history of women and men who've been doing that, so that's so I've really just been charting out like god, jesus, holy spirit, trinity, like what are all the words we use and what are our, what's our symbology with that, and then how do we think about that stuff?

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And so that's that's kind of.

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And my agent was like that's the book we all want from you, that's what you've been doing already.

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And I was like, yeah, I think so.

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It's probably just what I've been working towards.

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Those are the next projects for me up ahead.

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That sounds awesome.

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I mean, that's a lot right there.

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I'll tell you Good luck to you, sir.

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That's a lot right there, I know, uh, today, as I'm like sick and like sorry I didn't tell you, I'm like this is probably as much as I'm going to get done today is this podcast.

00:52:38.800 --> 00:52:40.652
Well, heck, yeah, man, man, let's do it.

00:52:40.652 --> 00:52:49.681
Yeah, okay, well, thanks so much for being on man um, is there anything that you you want to promote, or anything like that?

00:52:49.701 --> 00:52:51.505
yeah, I'm not, I'm not well, I do.

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I don't know sure when this is coming out, but I do have two more say yes shows coming out in columbus and cleveland at the end of May.

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The taping of Say yes is going to come out somewhere.

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It'll be available streaming on YouTube and other places like that if you want to see it.

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The book's available.

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I write on Substack and people can support me there or Patreon, but I'm putting stuff out there, so those are ways to connect with me.

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Awesome, well, well, thanks so much, scott, and that was a lot of fun.

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I enjoyed it, yeah great it's great being with you thanks for listening to the across the counter podcast.

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